Tired and aching from the daily activities of everyday life, I found myself thinking of how closed minded we sometimes are to the healing powers of our mind. Having discussed and argued some valid and not so valid points in this type of not only thinking but way of living. I've decided to give in and let my mind and body sit still.....and be still. Sitting in my yard while the full moon was above, my intention was to achieve mental silence. I previously claimed that I could reach such a feat, but not really knowing if it was done correctly. I engaged the conscience of my mind to erase the urban aspects of my environment. To feel as if I was alone for thousands of miles around me. Quiet, stillness, calmness....... I felt my body numb my hands palms up on my knees, weightless........ I was beginning a journey.......(then a southwest airlines jumbo jet flew right over me). Loud, noisy, unnerving....... Attempt number one was not a success.
A second attempt that very night. A shot of some brandy gave the sense that something warm in the belly would help achieve this silence. Found a quiet corner away from children and spouse. Another shot of brandy.....and then another hit the spot. Legs crossed, palms up on the knees. Turned on the fan helps keep the room noisy enough to drown out the outside noise and create some calming hum in the room. Mind drifting, hands weightless, mind quiet, the pictures in my head all blank...... Continuing on my journey to self discovery..... giddy with anticipation of what I will find......then a voice from beyond my minds eye..............(daddy....daddy..I want a banana and my brother won't give me one). Crash landing, balled up fists, mind angry......Attempt number two also not a success.
Will wait for another night, will look for another location.
